Swimmin in the deep end

Whooooo this is a learning experience.  I generally considered myself someone who is quite capable; someone who is aware of her strengths and is able to play to them.  Well if I thought that I knew what I was getting into, I thought wrong.

First of all, if eleventh grade volleyball wasn’t enough, I know am even more aware that I struggle with teams.. Boy that is something that I need fix.  I never realized that (despite my disaster of a room) I am meticulously structured.  I have constant lists and agendas and my ducks are always in a very straight row.  I get frustrated when things don’t go accordingly. Well, hey.  This is a #TIA moment, because NOTHING goes according to my plan. Ever.

More than my unchecked lists, ministry is WAY more than showing up on Sunday and reading a little scripture.  I am a taxi, a confidant, a teacher, a planner, a role model, a leader, a choir director.  Yes, you read that right.. The girl who got kicked out of 4^th grade choir is now LEADING a choir.  And that’s just the morning.

In the afternoon, I move to Lwandlekazi where I work with my grade 10.  All of the above, through in a whole lot of disorganization, and even more attitude.  When I get there usually around 1.00 in the afternoon, SOMETIMES school is in session.  It depends of if the teachers come, or if it is raining, or if it’s a Monday, or if anyone feels like it.  Usually around 2.30 I finally wrangle up the kids into a room and force some bonding on them.  Most days I then become the soccer or netball teammate/coach.  Then I ALWAYS become the taxi driver/ confidant. 

Nights are filled with meetings, that sometimes I know what was accomplished.

 

Anyway, this all sounds like a giant complaint, and that is far from what it is.  I enjoy every challenge every day, but woohhh did I not realize how dynamic I would need to become.  No job description could ever, EVER describe all of the things that I am learning, both about myself and about people, and about how to be alive.  I choose a good life.